STARS

She’d always loved the stars. She’d always loved sneaking up to the roof and laying down on the hard cement floor to see the beautiful bright stars in the dark night sky.

They’d always been there, a reassuring presence when nothing else was working out, when she started doubting everything, when she just wanted a break from it all.

They’d been there when her mum had died in a car accident, when she couldn’t watch her father’s tears drip down his unshaven cheeks anymore, when she couldn’t take care of the baby anymore, when she couldn’t be the responsible one anymore, when she couldn’t hold back her tears anymore.

They’d been there when her father stumbled into the house at 3 every morning, always with a girl by his side, when she couldn’t watch him waste his life away anymore, when she couldn’t put the young one to sleep anymore, when she couldn’t rub his back as he puked into the toilet bowl anymore,when she couldn’t hold back her tears anymore.

They’d been there when she found her boyfriend in bed with another girl, when she couldn’t believe in love anymore, when she couldn’t believe in herself anymore, when she couldn’t let people near her anymore, when she couldn’t hold her tears back anymore.

They’d been there when she could hear the jeers, the names, when she couldn’t go to school for days anymore, when she couldn’t find it in herself to get up anymore, when she couldn’t have friends anymore, when she couldn’t hold back her tears anymore.

They’d been there when her father was found in an alley downtown, when she couldn’t stay away from the razor anymore, when she couldn’t protect the young one anymore, when she couldn’t stay strong anymore, when she couldn’t hold back her tears anymore.

They’d been there when she finally let go, when she couldn’t do this anymore, when she couldn’t find a reason to live anymore, when she couldn’t be alone anymore, when she couldn’t hold back her tears anymore.

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